Since i've decided to go to italy for university instead of taiwan, everyone is been trying to make me change mind and make me stay here. People dont trust me much anymore, cause i ended up not going the way they wanted. I had a university to go and study (italian as major..boh), but i wasnt too hot on the idea of staying in taiwan. Since things changed in the meantime, it was a sign that i was not suppose to becoming to taiwan for university, but people still changed them..so what would this mean?That i should be staying in taiwan?My dad give me the chance to decide between these two countries, but he doesnt seem very happy of my decision. He keeps shows negative encouragement and how i will have trouble living in italy etc...But since he give me the right to decide, at least shouldnt he encourage me and be more positive?Everyoe is been calling me to ask me how it went etc...When i tell them about my decision, people reaction is quiet bad. They keep pushing, keep trying to convince, desperately convincing me etc...

My cousin came and asked me how come i've decided to go to italy, insted of taiwan. Without even giving me the time, he started to lecture me. He tells me that if i really didnt wanna come back to taiwan, i shouldnt have made all this mess. The problem is that 1/2 of me wanted to go to italy and the other 1/2 of me wanted to stay in taiwan, because my dad asked me for it. I just didnt have the gutz of telling him that i didnt wanna stay in taiwan, cause he made all of this mess, even thou i already wanted to give up at start and i didnt want other people say that im a crappy daughter that doesnt care of her father. Instead here i am..with all of this mess. No one trusting me, and will help me anymore in future. Is all of this mess worth going to Rome?

I even tried to ask my dad to be more happy these days, and get more along..but he just totally doesnt care, gaved up and kinda down cause he didnt manage to convince me to stay here. Is all of this mess worth my freedom and happyness?Should i just stay here and make everyone happy?and me?Even my cousin said that im old enough now, and should not be this childish and should think, more about other people...What would all of you guys do neh?